Today was a slow day, and the second one where I was sort of bumming. I'm still trying to figure out what I am doing up here and today was mostly spent reading articles on how to write and bumming about not writing than doing anything constructive. Well, that isn't really true. I did my yoga routine for the 2nd time since I've been here, which is sort of a big deal, because I've had a hard time doing it here, and I walked to "town" which took a couple of hours.

But I'm definitely feeling the lonely thing kick in more than I would like and today I entertained thoughts, briefly, of bugging out of here. But the bad thing, and the good thing, is that at the moment I don't have anywhere to go, or any reason to go there. I mean, I could travel anywhere right now and I have the money to do it, which is nice, but really this is still a good opportunity for me, there are so many things that I can do here and have the free time to do them finally and I can learn a lot about things that I want to do and myself. It's a matter of staying focused and organized and not kicking myself.

And I'm dealing with the lonliness thing better than I imagined. It's pretty amazing that I was able to go 4 days with almost no human contact without getting lonely and I guess it's only natural that I would get lonely at some point. But it still sucks and I still wonder how I'll manage it.

So that's where I'm at. I've had some amazing days up here. Like Monday. I drove all the way to Blue Hill and spent a couple hours photographing the sunset, which was pretty lovely. The ride back was rough, I was falling asleep and it felt dangerous, but still, with the top of the car down, sometimes it's so nice I have to let out a yell and look at the blue sky. So why am I bumming? I'm not sure. Maybe I'll stop. I feel better for writing.


- posted by Paul @ 7:20 PM